wORdS & mE

Some annnoying NER!!!u cud ve seen them too!! they may live next door!

2011-11-27T06:12:00.000-12:00

Somehow when some of our people complete their education and live in their new found Moneydom(full credit cards in wallet!) kill their brains!and their heart!
They just take it to work get promoted buy another car a house on OMR get married and raise children like they were born somewhere else and not in this country!.

The first identity lost is the language; the New Educated Rich(NER) never converse in their mother tongue its a bad thing c mon!.The next is whatever culture thats left is us.....like spending time with parents,family do few good deeds...instead most of this clan "hangs out!" at various pubs and splurge at all the stupid malls(ketta relax panrangalam!).Oh yeah but we all still follow our so called culture strictly in stupid things like say "Dowry!","Caste discrimintion","discrimination of all kinds!!".

Food culture : He he (apdinna!!) They will only eat Pizza ,burger have cola.....grow fat and die of some fancy disease and get all new twisted stuff in to the gene pool!.They teach their kids to be arrogant and rude and demanding ..but never teach them to be kids!!.

They ditch anything thats native,original...good for health..likes of the humble idly are forgotten ....even local veggies....NER only eat Blah veggie from Blah country( i mean how do u wash hands off your own good things so easily!).NER always travel in cars but they drive like psycho crack pots!(most of em) and honk as if the cycle fellow standing in front in the signal is the only thing between them and their house!which is like 100 Kms away!.

NER s also throw money around unnecessarily...they may pay 1500 Rs for a pair of chappal but you will note that they always fight with the poor vegatable vendor for that 2 Rs discount!.Psst ....they always cry to contribute for any gift buying at work for a collegue!
NER even when they travel in the AC Bus will hit around other people and fight for seat and never say sorry/thanks!!.They waste food like crazy common sights at restaurants!!!They never can wait in any queue ..they throw plastic water bottles out of their cars while driving..in the middle of the road!!.They show off like they are the Sultans of the world but they act soooo cheap!!!man!!why cant some of you be a little human and well mannered and original!!Money is not everything all the time!!!.

PS: This applies only to a certain little group that act really cheap and insane!!.
There are so many of them who really are very inspiring!!and great people who work hard ,go to great heights and still are so nice and human!

Food.......!!!!!! my love...my memories......

2011-10-22T06:22:00.000-12:00

Every morsel of food is a delight...it gives us life ,recharges our battery,stirs our soul,brings back memories,inspires us!!.

I ve been a crazy fan of the cookery shows on TV!!from my childhood.I love to cook!!!...food really really inspires me!
Its like clay.....u just play with it...it takes the flavour and love of the person who cooks it giving different interpretations when someone serves it to you!!!.
You can cook a simple Thayir Sadam or a complex dish cooking relieves your stress,kindles your creativity and is something that you better know to survive!!

Early memories of enjoying food are those hurried up morning breakfast sessions while you pray that the bus wont miss you :) and end up being late to school!!the simple yet yummy Idli Sambhar combo!!nothing can ever beat this unassuming superman combo!!!that will get your day kick started bindass!!!!
My lunch at school was Curd rice and potato fry or any other rice mix with the appropriate veggies(2 varieties of veggies was a must!!!).I remember a north indian friend sharing Green Chilli pickle(Yummy and heavenly) with rotis! or my good friend bringing the ever so simle paruppu sadam with baby potato fry:).

Evenings was filled with simple homemade dishes crispy dosas which my granny made and the my ultimate love pudina chutney!!!!!!.............ooooooooooooooooo i love it anyday.Somedays it would be some new stuff which my aunt saw on TV and all of us cousins used to be guinea pigs to any new dishes she used to make!
When i started cooking ,i guess i was in class 5; my easy menu for the evening used to be Top Ramen noodles ( i would make it a little soupy since i didnt get the water measure right :P) and my brother always loved what i made.My upmas,cutlets,samosas(thanks to cookery class in school) had a good fan following...even the instant coffee i made was appreciated!:).

Saturdays was the best of it all...when i return from school amma will be home and as i approach home just about half a kilometer away(just exaggerating :P) i would know she is making rasam,keerai masiyal,karunaikizhangu varuval!!!!and lunch was eaten on banana leaf!! .
Oh how i love the way i would wait for her to serve all the dishes in a certain order and only then start eating.
Sundays was the " Non Veg" days !!!breakfast watching Mahabhaaaraaaaaaaaat....Luch watching some regional language film......dinner was usually with stories about the whole week or some news programme!!.The fish curry my perimma made will make you start crying(it used to be sooooo spicy n yummy!!!)!!.And when it rained in Chennai it was time for Pakoda's with evening tea!:).
Summer s was always filled with Watermelons,Elanee,Nungu,ICE CREAM....no nonsense bottled crazy colas!!.There was a huge mango tree opposite our house , it was the most wanted since it had so many mangoes , all the rowdy boys used to throw stones at it watching them from our jannal was a favourite pasttime!!he he i used to have binacoulars to count the mangoes!!!lol!!.

College was absolutely no food or very less food ....ended up like a skeleton after my Engg quite obvious why !!.
But memories of spending time at my Mallu friend's house is just amazing!!Aunty made the most yummiest fish fry and rose cookies for Christmas was an all time favourtie!!!.
My fraandship(the new movie...see i am updated!!) with mallu food was those days i spent at her home doing my final year project!!she would never let me out of her house without eating food !be it lunch or dinner!!:).
The food at my other friend's house was always a treat!!I need to write a seperate post for that !!
College canteen either had chips,ice cream or bottled drinks!:(.Miss sharing one chips packet among ten girls!!whatty effort!

PG was just traveling looong distance to college and food was eaten as fast as you could coz you would be hungry like mad!evening was ice lolly and cupnoodles...i know nothing sounds remotely healthy!!

My office was the place where i met absolute food lovers...there was simply no looking back!!
The GREAT MANALI TRIP and the super cool food we ate there......the trip was special coz we ate different food at different Dhabas on our way to Manali by bus from Delhi!:).The adventure camp where we stayed had super amazing cooks who made the most beautiful food be it the simple bread toast(whole wheat i remember...) or the biryani!!!.
While we stayed at Noida just for a couple of days we were roaming the streets like mad people for some Idli and Dosa!!!Innumerable cups of Gulab Jamu at Lunch ......5 rupee per jamun was a steal!!!!i d say!

Friday Lunch sessions at Eden,Sigree,Dhaba,Amaravati...... so many places i really lost count!!it was fun as we were a big group and used to look forward to these sessions!
Bread Omlette at Alsa Mall,Frankie @ greams road! ,Tender Coconut pudding at Fruit Shop!Mint Icecream at Moven pick we wre just having a greaaat time!!!

....................................To be continued:):)

Oh yes!!!to whomsoever it applies!!!lol

2011-10-16T06:26:00.000-12:00

Its been ages .........happy to be back!!

Have always thought how silly people can behave....to anybody for that matter!!

No matter what you study,how much your travel...how many languages you speak.....how many wines and cheese names you can remember......you still remain the same cheap person!!! :)

Incidentally ready two articles in The Hindu Open Page today on the same lines as to how we judge people by their looks instantly (we ve really taken the 2 minute mantra seriously ,it works for maggie not people!!c mon!)and how kids nowadays do not respect even their own parents as human beings! (reminds me of that ad where the father is like an ATM who walks along with his sonny in a mall!!!! LOL).
Its not like everyone you see and meet is like that but some of them do have those shades of stupidity which they simply cant hide!!Like .....I will talk to / mingle with people who are from the same ....area,community,religion,speak the same language,same status!!!or same level ofstupidity!!! :P(this is excused!! saves others some energy!).
This kind of behavior is carried on to places where you study,work,socialise!!etc etc!!so whats the point on being the uber cool dude and still have the caveman ideology inside your head!! huh!?
These kind of people just make you feel sick!!!cant they do something to slip some sense in their head like slap them or something!!or rather give them an ANTI -whatever injection!!!

These folks live around you and irritate people without any end to it!!!If you have the time and energy try slapping some sense on a couple of them...the rest ......GOD shall only save all of us from THEM!!!!
Or we can learn to ignore them!!

So all the jumpy,ones out there who still live in dark ages wake up....all of us are human beings we can sometimes be nice to each other...for a change....!!!!

what makes me happy..!!??

2011-07-16T07:18:00.000-12:00

I know off late i ve kept just whining about something or the other ....but i do feel happy :)what makes me tick!!!!!hmmm...

* Good Movies
* Good people' s company
* The trees on OMR ...if they have flowers they really make me more happy
* Wind in my face :) while i come back home from work in a cab....
* Good Music...any good music... no language restriction
* Taking Pictures :)
* Writing...(which i ve nearly stopped doing!:( )
* Watching the world go by when i travel ...
* Traveling
* Clouds...how can i forget them :P i miss watching them nowadays

Thats all for now....some things i need to remind myself and feel happy about :)
cuz the high tide keeps getting higher!!still looking for land....!!!!

ADD!

2011-04-16T07:47:00.000-12:00

ADD i understand is medical condition.....simply going by the literal sense...it can be translated as one 's lack of attention!!!.In the days of " Web Living" where people spend good(rather most of the time
)amount of time trying to connect over cyberspace/chats/Im ing /tweeting/social networking and the likes communication happens through abbreviations.
World has shrunk so has words...and so has attention spans.
With so much happening so quick one really wonders if the kinds who can read a 500 page novel still exist!.
May be in future they would design an application which would start of a siren if u speak more/take more time to communicate!

So much of garbage in media u switch channels like 50 channels/sec one really feels the pinch when u watch a movie at one streatch in a theatre and when there s a slow song u really want to change the channel/pause or do something about it.

Reading a news paper cover to cover was a daily affair...but now u skip lines and jump and probably are restless to get to the jist of it!!Even when you speak the attention span u can have of the other person is like nano seconds because there is always your high tech mobile which cries out louder than a child for attention(ah those annoying ringtones & caller tunes!)or there is an instant message about your friend's status update on facebook!and one is easily tempted to multi task than to talk to the person sitting right across the table!.The only exception to this could be the New Age lovers immersed in their endless mobile converstaion over a looooooooooong period of time :P !
Its becoming real that one has to be like an AD film maker to sell yourself/communicate in the shortest span of time.Gone are those days when even a power cut in the city was a moment for the family to bond and talk through. Now noone really has the patience!!!!
I feel this personally i am not able to read long articles, decently sized books !!!
I feel that only a concious effort to switch off from the Fast Forwrd mode and switch over to Normal Mode can kill this diminishing attention span syndrome.

On the way...

2011-02-12T07:44:00.000-12:00

The most interesting part about a bus journey is the fact that u just watch the world go by....and still noone knows u r watching them.

I love it when i travel long distances by a bus :).
I have had awesome fun in my 6 years of bus journey everyday to colleges on OMR.

My intial experience was my commute to Hindustan ;an hour and a half of travel time.
Then OMR had trees,ponds on either sides...there used to be fog in whatever winter chennai experinced.
And one got to see lots of birds .
My entertainment apart from chating,singing...sometimes sleeping used to be spotting kingfishers:).
I remember the bus i used to travel in was - Brahmaputra :0) i ve had loads of fun there.......

Then later with SSN it was the famous bus number "7".Me and Priya ve had some of the most entertaining times in the bus !:P

How i miss those times....

My Halwa!!!!!

2010-03-05T04:00:00.002-12:00

Hurray....yipeeee................yesterday i made halwa!!!!

It was the wedding anniversary of my appa amma, so i decided to make some sweet at home.

Found one beetroot in the fridge so zeroed in on beetroot halwa.

Was really impressed with the outcome :) yummy!!!

hmmm....................!!!!!!err....just a pic

2010-02-24T06:34:00.002-12:00

An Evening in mottai madi.....

2009-11-27T03:21:00.010-12:00

This week succeeded in venturing in to my mottai madi after a long long time.....

Pleasant evening.....clicked away a couple of pics....

Bday blues....

2009-05-30T03:46:00.003-12:00

Another year .......one more year older ...(obviously..!).....as far as its just cakes and gifts and fun its fine...
this " age" part really sucks...!!!!cant do anything abt it....

someone at work asked how old are u now.....i said 15 :P

Didnt go to work (hurray!!) instead went to temple with Mom and Dad...then watched a movie PASANGA was a cute movie laughed my heart out!!!was too cute( i know ve already mentioned it but it was much better than those stupid formula movies...).
After movie had no plans but to grab something to eat (pavam hungry stomach was begging)...went to the food court...then ended up screaming with surprise seeing my sweet friends there :) was a great surprise :) bijya and antenna!! :)

Then 2 days later ...office ppl had organised their usual ceremony!!!.
Trust me most of the time it so bloody resembles a bad play where everyone recites memorised dialouges!!!!thought i had escaped my turn since i was on leave!!!

The cake was nice!!i was hungry pretending not to know all that was going around me(collecting money ....buying gift.... entry with cake...)
My sweet friend and a senior made it easy for me :)
The gifts were sweet and ceremony unusually turned to be a nice one :)

Hoping to do some new things this time around... :)

Gift Hunting...

2009-05-24T02:05:00.002-12:00

Hunting for gifts has become almost my KRA at work....perks of being a HR person...

I really enjoi gift hunting not because you escape from work....its really nice to plan in short while(the budget part is the real villain :P for office gifts)one has to configure what the person likes ,their taste and any recent conversations that could be valuable inputs in making the crucial decision!!

I have been part of many ceremonies...birthdays,farewells at work....
Its always a pleasure to watch someone open the wrapper with a twinkle in their eyes...:)

My most memorable gift hunting experiences would be;
* The day i picked up a gift for my colleague by planning right under her nose...she had no clue...and she liked the gift too...

* the gift me and rams put together for Sips's wedding ..it was an awesome experince...we just went mad implementing a new idea....it worked out beautifully....

yeah thats all :P

hungry!?

2009-04-25T02:15:00.004-12:00

Today i made popcorn at home:)) yipeee..
Not that it is a miracle or something ...but i am soo excited....White and fluffy cute pop corn!!!!yummy.

But not all days at work are same when it comes to a good tea time snack.
If the juice counter is open then u are partially safe..or else one is doomed to "Food" available in the OTHER counter.
There was bhaiya(anyone and everyone calls him that!!!)who spoke only hindi.....and one should listen to the conversations between the bhaiya and the others who dont know Hindi!!!its hilarious!!
Some people try speaking all the words they ve picked up from any hindi film they ve watched
while the others stick on to the age old sign language:P.
Some of them managed to speak to bhaiya in his own language(like moi:P)...but really dosent make a difference ,you tell him to make chat without onion that day he l end up putting a plateful so the sev puri will become onion puri!!!

His famous piece of work was his parathas....which was great to start off with but ultimately he made only them so people got bugged...now he is missing theres a new counter!!!lets see how far this goes!!By the way now its Dosa time !!!!

The other place our office people go to rescue their hungry stomach is namma sangeetha!!!

Me and my friend go there pretty often...i end up having idlies all the time(its light and easy!!).

But my friend hates it...she is the brave one who wants to try every new thing on the menu.
One day i was stuck trying to figure out what she wanted to order....our bad luck was it was also not on the menu but somehow she had the idea that she has seen that dish served at the hotel.

We ended up playing something like dumbC..my friend went on and on ..saying only this abt the dish...

"rounda irkkume de.....rounda irukkume!!!!"(idli dosa ellame rounda dhaney ma irukkum!!:P)

Then finally finally she got the word "CUTLET " to hear that it was not available from the waiter(appada!!!).

But we ve also had some amazing experiences trying new food...

Our Mathsya...flood experince was the best of the lot!!!

We have tried some good food we have also had some WORST experinces!!!!(better to forget them and the after effects!)

One best incident to pick when i remember of eating with friends was one time at office canteen..when we challenged a friend to flick more sweets from the counter(they give only one piece of sweet per plate)

The look on her face was priceless......she looked like she was gonna rob a bank or something!!!
Finally she did manage to do the task!:) of course we all ended up laughing like mad watching her carefully choreographed moves!!!!haha!

....to be continued :)

The not so cold weekend..

2009-03-03T06:15:00.002-12:00

The weekend after my worst cold attack....was a surprise hit!!!

Morning watched a Movie...didn't like it..was a big let down(Dilli 6)!!:(
I loved RDB so was expecting a lot... anyways songs were awesome!!

The same evening went to the beach...had a great time there!

and then another week began.........

And now seriously contemplating doing something in the weekends....its really boring to sit at home and watch TV!My lang class plan flopped big time....gotto figure out somethin ..soon

Cold Weekend

2009-02-15T02:53:00.003-12:00

Its been an awfully long time since i had logged in.

Fingers are itching to type;).

Again fell sick on a goddamn weekend ...flopped all plans i had.

Thanks to "somebody" who spread the joy of an absolutely hard working virus!!!

My absolutely sweet voice!! sounds horrible!!!i havent touched my phone in the last 2 days!!except for playing games on it.

V day..on a weekend so!?? wat...lotsa mushy movies on TV :)

Did not get to play shuttle this week either :( .

Screwed up a movie plan...and i know my friend is waiting to kill me when she sees me.

God Save me!

The Rain Story

2008-11-21T02:53:00.005-12:00

Today it was pouring cats and dogs in Chennai!!:)

The weekend before Diwali , i remember we planned to go for our monthly lunch outing at work.

The discussion about where we should go....went on and on......

"Eden...we always go there!!"

"Sangeetha...too much crowd can't wait !!"

Then one gentleman who overheard us talk suggested Mathsya in Egmore.

So we went there...had food....you have to note that when we went inside the hotel it was HOT outside....really hot.While having dessert i saw the amused look on the waiters face...he kept on looking at the door and was too excited...only after we paid the bill and made our move did we realized it was raining like mad , outside!!!!
None of us had umbrellas.....to top it all the street started flooding and water started coming in to the hotel....
we became paranoid coz there was no way out...with knee deep water...no autos....it was already getting late,we needed to get back to work !
Then all four girls swam out....started running like crazy ppl in the road..managed to get an auto...Outcome - got drenched head to toe!!

So we all left home early:)..otherwise we would all have froze in the office air conditioning .

I love the rain so so much!!!!!

Cute lil flowers!!!

2008-11-21T02:24:00.007-12:00

i blah.....2

2008-11-02T01:15:00.002-12:00

I wanna climb up on some hill top and just screammmmmmmmmmm out loud!!!

Or do bungee jumping......or learn dancing( i believe i have two left feet!) or try something that i dont get to do in my normal boring life....................

but i swear i just think and wanna do things like this.....i never do it!

but the way my life is showing me....i better do something to kill boredom and just stay alive!i really really wanna breathe!!!!

i blah

2008-10-08T04:40:00.003-12:00

it s been a while since i could lay my hands on the comp and write a post!!!!
Machi!!!finally.......

confusion confusion..........

so how to break away from the rock that is tied to my feet....(incidentally i have broken my toe!!!now ).

Or is it just an illusion that something is holding me back from what i want to be....

i dont know !!!(my fav line!)was i born confused!!!!

I am a bit surprised when people tell me teens are the worst times when it comes to being susceptible to a confused state of mind!

I on the other hand was firm in what i wanted in life!but now all grown up...i go back and forth deciding things!

whatever man!!!!i am just telling my instincts to steer me around...away from confusions in life!!!

and let be be my own happy self and have fun!(i dont know what relevance this pic has...i am in it so i ve used it!!!;) )

I traveled yet again!!!

2008-09-07T02:28:00.004-12:00

Hmmm...so the greatest happiness in the recent times was my trip to Kerala!!!!!!!!

After 100s of hours of watching Travel and Living and fantasizing all the beauty of countryside....i got to experience the sheer adventure of traveling!.

The 3 crazy nuts hence went and came back!!!:)on a sweet trip to the lovely spots!

The backwaters are just breathtaking!! being there for 3 days was like a dream!

So i travelled again!!!!!yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

So whats up!!!!!

2008-07-22T02:21:00.003-12:00

Its been ages since i sat down to write a post....

Work- life is a different ball game altogether.

Its been a year after my MBA ..but feels like so much more!

Life gets more complicated when you shoulder responsibilities.

The need to define a path that will ultimately satisfy my soul is what i am looking at.

I really have all the fun i can wherever i am .....whoever is around me....

the time i travel back home from work ...when i put my ear phones on and listen to some music

is equivalent to a spa experience!!!!!i must say!!!

The one good book i got my hands on...was the story of Lance Armstrong.Was a good read.

Got a long list of movies that i need to watch..:) the last one i got to watch was "The Happening"(believe me,it certainly was not happening at all)

Went for a wonderful play last Sunday and had an awesome time!!!!!

So thats whats been happening with me....

All glass buildings and computers make the society.......

2008-04-06T08:06:00.005-12:00

I ve been living in Chennai ever since i was born.I respect this city and have seen it change over the years.Since i have not lived anywhere else this is the place that i ve seen transformation ,all thanks to the
Whatever revolution!!they call it;)

On a serious note is it a good thing that happened to,not only this city but to us as a country??
okay !its good

It gave us jobs,a reason to fly across all over the globe,Live a dream in some cases,
extreme freedom,more money!(that should ve been on top of the list)
It basically took us to another level not without any damages.Am not being pessimistic here.

The first was a Crazy turn of crowds towards the industry,killing a lot more Educational courses offered.Everyone wanted to be an engineer(any dept would do the trick coz they need truckloads of ppl thats how they recruit every year from campuses).But what happened to those who did not want to do the RAT RACE and be themselves ,but for a few we never gave most of them any jobs....so.....people waited to catch a bus to neverland that seemed the only option to survive "The O's in the market".

Crazy money that started to spin around and make people act like complete maniacs!
All Malls and sooper markets ...where we all shop all day with SOOPER POWER!

what are we shopping for!!we dont know!we have MONEY! man !ALL IN CAPS...so who cares!!
we all bought cars....to send in more monoxides of carbon in to the air,

we have not left a bit of land for a tree to grow....we need more buildings(okay the population is growing but thats not it...everybody wants the same piece of land in the HEART OF THE CITY any city!!or anything that even looks like a city).

People have no time for anything in their world!not for family,not for friends,not even themselves!

Most places of education have become some kind of manufacturing units that prepares anybody and everybody(devoid of attention to special talents,the kids forget it themselves in the mad rush) to cater to the Monster industry.

People have come to a conlusion that MONEY CAN GET THEM anything they want!!
We may have come a long way.....sporting big brands,flashing our status...but still we get more dowry coz the hyper intelligent groom would not marry without it!inspite of his exposure to the WEST from where he borrows everything else...but not an open mind.

Kids are the focus of most of the marketing done here...we ve taught them how to cry for everything they want , thanks to all the non-stop TV commercials selling every damn thing!
so kids in today's society are robbed of their innocent childhood.

The happening crowd thinks talkin and walkin with a slang dose it all...who are u faking....only u!!

This inflow of money has done remarkable things is many other essentials for survival.But has ,for sure deepened the separation between the rich and the poor!the dying farmers are just news material,coz we are more interested in knowing which celebrity is with whom!!!!!

These few points which i remembered while writing may seem so disconnected to the so called Whatever revolution but u ve got to connect the dots.......may be its not the industry may be its the money may be its something else...may be this is what we call growth.....chaos is indeed growth!!

I do believe in the fact that there are people who still exist walking their own paths not succumbing to the straightened hair syndrome(he he!!!thats my nick name for everyone who wants to be the SAME ONE)making a difference,showing the rest not just to be in the herd ! I pray for more of such independent people to rise for they are the ones who live their lives to the fullest....

Disclaimer: All of these are just observations of things happening around,in this society.

Jus Look Around

2008-02-28T04:33:00.003-12:00

The small things that we might miss out, in the quest for all that we consider important to us....

These tiny little things sights & sounds give us joy, may be momentary but a good enough

reason to stop and smile be it half a second!!.No crap philosophy from me...but simple reasons to smile!so just

look around...

Good Days do come!

2008-02-24T16:56:00.003-12:00

My Graduation day.......the best day ever!!!
Its really close to my heart!!this degree.....this college....regardless of all the bad experiences i ve had here.
The good thing finally happened on the 16th of Feb when two years of hard work paid off!!as an MBA degree.

I ve been thinking .......i ve reached the first mile stone....and from here no more looking back...coz i know life isn't going to wait!!

What is happening!!!!

2008-02-15T04:10:00.004-12:00

i wanna scream out loud......

how far will i run....how much......but i know for a fact that i will have to keep running , if i stop i am not gonna exist....

the last couple of days have been extremely testing!!!!

i know that life's challenges are innumerable....and u ve got to fight it to live!!

but i feel cornered without any option....

i want to move on....i am exploring even the remotest possibilities.....i am a happy person but i feel so tied up that i cant smile!!

i hope i find something to hold on this wave seems pretty strong...making the earlier ones seem nothing!!!

le weekend ;)

2008-02-03T00:14:00.001-12:00

What was i doing all week at office....working obviously!!!!what did i do during my most precious weekend,again i made a million plans!!but ended up in the couch watching TV!!!bad thing ,i know!!
All days of the week you wait for a friday and then this has been the second weekend i ve ended up at home!!!
Is it such a bad thing to be at home?hmmmm...a part of me says "Yes!" because i am not at a movie,a play,a bookstore,the beach,a coffee shop or out shopping .A small but weak part of me says "No!!" , its not that bad after all , i get to watch all the movies i want to , in peace! like today i watched "you ve got mail" !!! yipee!!! also i do enjoy cooking my sunday afternoon special meal!! or my cup of tea with the newspaper( i read the open page :) ) or jus lazing around !!.

Okay , this weekend i fell sick!!!(i fall sick on a WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!).

Anyways i am not some one who has a huge social circle to "hang out" with !!!
i am a bit of a surprise to myself , i instantly connect with people i meet , but nothing happens after that!!.But i haven't cared about it at all because i ve been busy running after something or the other in my life.

The other day my school friend tells me i was always studying in school!!!perhaps i was doing it!!that i missed what else was happening around.
In my two schools and two colleges , i would be the last person to know who was going out with who!!!and who became friends...when!!??

Now i should be the INNOCENT ONE!! or may be the one who lives and sees only what i want of others !
I dont even know why i am typing all this now!!!whatever!!!!

But believe me there have been so many days when i have so many things to do...go out!that the day was never ever sufficient!
My friends have GRaduated with their social skills, that some have a boyfriend , a friend , a cousin , a BROTHER(its got a story behind it!!he he a funny one though!!) or someone
out of the cyberspace who ve just become an indispensable resource of their life!! to hang out with ,can't blame them.Gotto think of something else...

I have contemplated roaming around alone!!guess thats the only way i can not rot at home and do what i wanna do.....

its a big world out there i guess i can handle this idea!!and make the most out of my sundays!!!
yeah yeah!!!i l do it!!!!.......i better do it!!!

Flowers

2008-01-19T23:54:00.000-12:00

Random Shots

2008-01-14T06:19:00.000-12:00

Spotted these flowers near a friend's house!there was an angry insect buzzing around managed to click this snap while evading the angry insect ;)

This is a house in the street where i live......on karthigai deepam despite the strong breeze all the lamps were glowing beautifully !!

This plant captured my attention near a compund wall of a parking area!so jus clicked!

Again another snap on deepam at home!

2008!!!

2008-01-01T02:56:00.000-12:00

What do i look forward to this year!!

lotsa things actually!

First ,i have made some few little promises to myself!!

1) quit being lazy

2) Be Punctual!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(now thats really importat coz a couple of my friends are planning to disown me for this ;) )

3) DO certain things i have been putting off for a quite time

4)Take a lotta pictures!

Every new year is looked at as a new beginning by people all over the globe!

So i choose this day as a start to change few things!and am gonna do it!!

NOTE!

2007-12-21T01:02:00.000-12:00

Are you used to being the center of attention all the time!!life must be a bit easier then!

The world or should i say the society NOTICES you first and only then ..... sometimes(may be) tries to know you .
Things people do deliberately to get noticed and i must give credit to the INNOCENT ones (note:Getting noticed might have different meanings , i simply mean desperation for attention which is just an observation;) ).

Talking machines.....pls note they never stop!and i mean it ! they never really do(this line coming from me really means a lot!).I thought i spoke more !nah nah!!!they talk @ the rate they breathe.And yes you must appreciate some of them ,they really know to use their Language skills with different accents at different gatherings gaining Bonus points and voila!!!NOTICED!!

The ones with an ATTITUDE...or a claim to have one!
They may be cowards,weaklings but they hide all that below the carpet and carry attitude on their shoulders wherever they go....and get NOTICED.

The ones with LOOKS ....they rule the roost.Cant blame them right!
And if you are friends with one you might have heard enough and more of how some one s always looking at them always(esp the guy in the 3rd building on the 4th floor!).
so hence NOTICED.

The ones with talent,they are a blessed lot i should say.They are good at what they do and that really matters.So here u go they are NOTICED.

The loud ones and i must say the DECIBELS they score make it impossible for you to miss them.No matter who calls them on their phone ,the whole world knows what they are talking about!so even if they blabber they grab your attention NOTICED.

The bold ones , they do what they believe in and are never sorry for it.Cant miss them right!NOTICED.

The NETWORKED,they live among you but beware they know all the poeple in this world especially in the right places.They just push the right buttons.They can weave a web much stronger than spiderman himself.so u get NOTICED right.

The push overs!,all said and done this is a mean place and people take you for a ride when they know they can!so they are NOTICED.

There is more to what i could think of.
You could easily bump in to one of them any day!may be everyday!YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN;)

Once again.....

2007-12-16T16:03:00.000-12:00

its been a long time!!!

out of college...in to a JOB!!

life has changed its ways.No fear of exams!anymore.

But office is quite funny in its own ishtyle.

Funnier than college....in terms of people!

lots to write abt......!!!

what next!!!!!

2007-11-11T00:01:00.000-12:00

You are doing something in life....you actually wanna do something else thats a little dreamy!!!!

what is it that draws a boundary for me.....

who draws the never ending rainbow that gives a cute smile on the face........

who makes so many people achieve the impossible.....

what does it take to close the gap!!!!

so whats next....my restless little brain is looking for some activity!!!

some real action!!!!!

Am waiting man!!

Laziness

2007-10-02T15:48:00.000-12:00

I hate myself for being so lazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
Its like sometimes u do not have control over what you actually want to do!!!.
A stupid thought of"can i not do it now"!is ten times more worse than a deadly disease!!.

By the time i realize what i ve done i am drowning with guilt!

Jus wanna be Anti-Lazy!!!!whatever it means :).

lots n lots more.....

2007-09-06T15:41:00.000-12:00

its been a while since i wrote........so many things happening around.....so many thoughts crossing my mind.....will post during the weekend!!

Dont be jus some one....Be THE ONE!!!

2007-08-15T02:48:00.000-12:00

60 years of Independence....

we fought a great war , the thirst for freedom bound so many people together, they gave their lives.Our real heroes!!!we salute them and celebrate the spirit of this wonderful nation.
we ve come a long way.

we still have to go a long long way...and who is going to do the honours!?

The youngsters , of course.

I feel we all have been blessed with some talent or the other,the key lies in not just "jumping in to the well like the other person".
An entity as big as a nation does not grow by jus a few people making an effort,the individuals of the entity should be strong contributors.....today there are so many people who are doing great things at an early age be it any field....
Is it a compulsion that all of us who graduate have to slog for some air conditioned sweat shop !??have,at least most of us signed a bond or something???
Every year, thousands clear XII std, most of them end up in one of the many engineering colleges,now they have a feeling an MBA is also a must!!!!!!
What are we trying to prove!!!!the worst part of this phenomenon is,most of the people who want to do different things in life end up doing the same thing ....which is really really insane.
These couple of degrees are pursued because they seem to be the "IN thing"!!! and the Society believes that this is a sure shot success path!!.

The sad truth though is people who are forced in to these things are bound to lose themselves....and their identity!!!

Cant we all do different things.....and excel so that as a nation collectively we could become a big success story....We could make it to the next level!!

India,to outside world was The Taj,Snake charmers,Beggers........a long time ago.......
now we are a country which literally breeds Qualified people who can become top professionals in companies across the globe......

so who is complaining??!!! whats the problem?????

Why cant all those brains be used here .....so that we come out with wonders in every field possible.....young entrepreneur's should be supported.....
So what if your son or daughter wants "Not to Become a doctor/engineer/an Mba" or all those clichéd professions!!
Let them be free spirits...be a tattoo artist , a musician, a sports person(again all the sports!!!;),
a potter, a craftsman ,great inventors, scientists..........
Even now there are some who do all this in spite of all the PRESSURE and labeling by the society as an outcast!!we need lots more people who can be path breakers,great achievers....so that we have a nation of young individuals who can make a mark in any damn field.......

Growth is not jus the "figures" , increasing shopping malls,foreign brands, consumerism......growth means every individual is also growing as the nation grows,not a lopsided one...........

So many great thinkers and young minds have already started the quest to define a whole new meaning of success..........
So expand your boundaries...break them .....become great human beings,contribute to the society....
we have it in us to become GREAT INDIVIDUALS.......we can do more things than just following or rather aping other cultures,we have all the resources with us...lets be socially conscious and do every bit we can.......

WE CAN REALLY MAKE A DIFFERENCE........

kids!? or adults!!

2007-08-11T04:24:00.000-12:00

The best part of anyone's life would be definitely their childhood.But its really disheartening to see them lose their childhood due to unnecessary pressure to perform by none other than their own parents!.

I get to see lots of kids in my neighborhood, i really feel sorry for them.They do not get to spend any quality "KIDS TIME" at all....

All that they do endlessly is to watch some stupid TV channel coz the mother's feel thats an easy way to tie them to one place!!so when do they get to play!!????really when?
At school,the kid is again treated like some tamed animal,"mug" so much,"vomit" so much,never ever think on your own...So what if the parent wanted to learn dance!!??and couldn't do it , why should the child suffer and end up doing what he/she does not enjoy!?
Again television shows add fuel to the fire , promoting cut- throat competition!a child as small as 5/6 yrs old has to go through a roller coaster of emotions for a dumb competition!Why is it all about winning all the time!
Appreciate creativity,don't be overprotective , let them learn , explore , enjoy this world.
And for heavens sake do not send them to tuitions.
Let them get an opportunity to choose things for themselves.Do not make them zombies who have to come first in everything they do!!And teach them to respect their MOTHER TOUNGE!!
My sweet neighbor tries hard to talk to her children only in english though they study in good schools , and if they by any chance talk in tamil they get a cold stare!!
What are these crazy people trying to prove!

Only once in our lives do we get to be a child ,let them live happily for once!!why do you burden them with all your unfulfilled wants!they are individuals , let them grow up to be a strong one!
instill values , respect for the country, native culture , the environment!
And do not push them to succeed all the time!!

Kids in class X and XII are the worst victims of this stupid society,lesser marks makes one an outcast!!so what if you cannot mug stuff and decorate answer paper!!our system does not value "thinking capacity" anyways!!

SO DUMP the dumb things and let them get a life!!!one filled just with happiness and free thinking with parents as friends and not like a watch dog!!!

the turning point......

2007-07-17T07:59:00.000-12:00

All of us experience innocence in its purest form as a child.....knowing nothing about this world....with a few basic needs.....and love in the form of a mother who is god to us......as n when we grow up....ideas blossom.....we look at this world....ask questions understand more.........the more we grow up the more we think we know....

but do we..............

are we the same in a relationship...be it with siblings...friends............family..... ur "d(L)ove!!!!!
are we..????

i ve seen people change....jus like that...is it the way things are ???

do people who always have the same kind of love n affection have to say "bye bye" bcoz of a new found boyfriend(don't look at me like am anti love or somethin...have a friend who s in love u l know then....!!)may be the newness of things might distract u from the "old people" in life....but is that a permanent excuse.....i donno

may be it is!

hmmmm...........so there comes a turning point in the form of a new relationship...a job........a new hobby.......an opportunity....

may be at the cost of someone who loves u......
it happens.....we after all .....do adapt....to situations.....so we live!!!!!????
now thats plain.....so back off if u spot ur close ones display "turning point" syndrome...but do continue to love them...they l need it:)

so ......i travelled........

2007-07-11T04:09:00.000-12:00

i ve always wanted to travel far n wide.....so here comes an opportunity .......a great one!!!indeed....

left chennai to...................manali!!!yipee...........the journey was kinda tiring(2 days by train...almost another by road!!!!!!ufff...........)but it was in the end........

A M A Z I N G!!!

we went trekking ....the first day.....and yeah after all that icky sticky journey we kinda thought of a hotel.......but we landed up in tents!!!

got used to it!!!though.......it was in the end great fun ...
the second day we did river rafting!!an hour and a half.....was the most amazing experience ever!!!

the third day....we were taken to rohtang pass....was too"cool : )" the journey we took....and the sights on the way was jus out of this world!!

had loads of fun.........i lost track of time all these days..it was kinda peaceful.....away from the city........calm and quiet..........and jus beautiful......

and yeah....i ve learnt to play UNO!!!!finally!!thanks to my tutors!!:)

this trip will be close to my heart!!!lots a new things i learnt....explored............and enjoyed!!

so

ippdi irunda nanga........

ippadi ayitom :)

i see u.........

2007-06-21T01:13:00.001-12:00

mottai madi.....

2007-06-21T00:52:00.000-12:00

Got a glimpse of the wonderful clouds.....n blue sky on a warm sunny evening.......
danks to bun priya.....for having let me use her phone!!

time flew by........

2007-06-03T01:12:00.000-12:00

the past year and a half......a phase...a new experience......my post graduation in management ....you can call it people science!!!:)

whatever went right or whatever went wrong is immaterial....the learning is more important .......
its gonna be there always .......

i ve already in various;) other posts written about people n more people from my class.....seriously they have so much impact u kno!!

one thing i ve loved from day one is the campus....that has given my cloud watching craziness a great opportunity..........a sense of belonging....the pillayar kovil!early morning bus to college.......
ample vetti time on the lawn.......ice lolly from the stores............cup noodles(sad compromise to food!).......library(my fav nat geo magazines!!).........the class rooms......

intense discussions on case studies.........assignments(never completed).......tests for which studying happens on the way to college............sleepy afternoon sessions..........
sudden sweet gestures from unexpected people in class.......music sessions in class(merci....the class computer n the speakers!)

the late evening 5.30 pm bus.........all that non stop chit chat!!on the way!!!!
we were a weird bunch..........could not quite enjoi harmony but still managed to survive......
strong relationships have evolved for some........for others its been a mess........either ways.......for some this might be the last phase of student life........so there s a lot to remember n be happy.....memories that can bring a smile........the next phase...out of the comfort zone.....has beckoned us.......n here we go......we all have dreams to fulfill goals to achieve........
the search has begun......

daily dosage.....

2007-06-03T00:09:00.000-12:00

sometimes i feel i need to travel far n wide ........not jus to see places but also to see people......to see life happening in different directions.....different societies.......beliefs..........
but in a minute i feel the vibrant mix of all that i want to experience in the vicinity(not giving an excuse to hide my inability to materialise my travel plans!).

Take a walk to a nearby park......jus sit for a while.......so many people ...so many different lifes.......different battles fought at different levels with different capabilities.....all that is similar is the dawn that brings hope....n the dusk which in its darkness dissolves all misery and enhances hopes for the new day........

different shades of everyday life......a mother trying to convince the baby to eat....by taking help from the silent n smiling moon and the twinkling stars......
tired riders navigating the smallest paths......dragging tired souls home from all day's work........
mothers....wives.......contemplating an easy cooking solution on their way home in a crowded bus...........happy teenagers swarming ice cream shops to chill out.............
brothers n sisters fighting at home to conquer the tv remote!......young men discussing society n politics at a local tea shop..........students discussing their exam paper...........all that glam sham at the shopping mall.........the overcrowded eat out........

its sometimes nice to step away and see whats happening around u.......so many characters so many different people......we all live in the same space......but each entity has a story to tell..!

some wonderful moments u l catch like.....
the tiny kid beaming with a victorious smile after pulling out the dad's mobile outta his pocket........mom hinting daughter the top she just bought is too short to which the daughter retorts with a priceless stare!...........a young couple,shopping...the wife searching for comments from the clueless husband's face at a jewelery shop......

people watching is the most entertaining and educating experience.......hmmm........watch n learn ;)

:)

2007-05-25T06:35:00.000-12:00

Was a day filled with sweet n much sweeter surprises.....................woke up......wore my pudhu dress...(u see its my birthday today)....pa pa pa!!getting that pudhu dress was such a difficult task...............after all the heart breaks got pudhu sattai!!:)

heard mom screaming ..."ur friends have come!"...duh!!i am not expecting anyone....so naturally got puzzled.....
walk out of the room...see a bunch of nuts(thanks guys!) singing BDay song for moi!!ore the surprised!!

Rushed to "the u know what but name it not" place(office!!)....was cursing all the stars for having to go to work.....but then met up with the same bunch for lunch(adade!)..........

Late evening....one most important person i was looking forward came home......my good sweet friend......she is a gift from god.....i jus pray she gets all the happiness in this world!!forever....

so many cute gestures of love n affection.............
was indeed a day filled with showerings of love n affection from people who i love the most....thank u god!

its my little heart.....

2007-05-24T05:28:00.000-12:00

sometimes ......rather most of the times we end up blaming others for our heart breaks.....
its silly ...even if there is someone...who broke your heart.....jus ignore em....
its our sweet little heart...we l mend it......to keep us happy:)

The Other Side

2007-05-09T05:17:00.000-12:00

life....never comes on a "ready-to-live" palette
u build your future....
living on the edge....is there a tomorrow?
yes! there is?
And its gonna be the way i want....
my reach is bigger ... bigger than my grasp
i can bridge bigger gaps.....
to live a life thats
happiness....
till then i never give up.....
never....
laid back...i may look...
am not...
the bridge...is not on the other side.....
its just a blink away!

photo : courtesy Mr.Lalith "ace photographer" Kumar :)

my first poem...

2007-05-07T04:06:00.000-12:00

u can call it a poem( nijamma!)........i wrote it in Tamil...when i was in school.............
those lines jus came to me...from somewhere...
put it down on a piece of paper....wrote using a pencil........
folded it....and kept it in one dark corner of my bag....!!

next day in school.....somehow happened to discuss it with a buddy in class......

don't exactly remember how it became popular n reached my Tamil teacher......
the very shy me...stood so embarrassed.....but my teacher n friends were so impressed that its still with me.....in print!!yes it was published in my school year book!! :)

My second poetry exercise !was when i had to write something for my brother..a class assignment.....
this one in English...it was anti-malaria campaign in school!!wrote something and gave!!it was on the bulletin board..... :)!!!

i wrote stuff...somewhat similar but not quite close and intricate as a poem..when i had a stupid mood swing..!!.....

i donno how well i can write a poem....but the feeling you get when u write about something u feel for ..a belief......from your heart , does give immeasurable happiness...................immense sense of satisfaction.....!

To BE or not to BE.....

2007-05-06T03:19:00.000-12:00

Education.......is it necessary....is it!?

yes it is....it opens up a whole new world of opportunities....it does right!?

so who decides what to study?

till std x its pretty much the same....get a feel of all the subjects so that higher secondary will let us somewhat fine tune what we wanna do...
after that what happens is chaos..!!!

every year people end up choosing a course coz its hot!!says who...noone knows!
so when do u study what u like...what you are passionate about......
its really sad when u get answers like my cousin did this course ....my uncle's daughter's neighbor said its a cool course so i am doing it!!what!!!!???

making this choice may be easy for some......... may be difficult for some.....but who's gonna end up suffering!dont do something blindly because someone else is also doing it!think......what do i wanna become...!!what subject interests me the most....

opportunities are plenty .....a lot of unconventional courses are here to stay......
do something thats a passion....that l give direction.......

summa engineering!!padikrennu !!its not a style statement for god's sake!

i see lotsa people who detest what they are studying.....some do it for their daddy's sake...the others lose the battle....they jus turn up to class.....!hating what they do.....

god give some clarity to these over enthu parents who push their kids in to stuff they dont wanna do....

enjoi what u study........the career u make matters the money matters....but dont lose yourself at the first step..itself......

stand up for what u believe...never be "jus another person"! face the odds........be a winner....

Summer time....

2007-04-27T01:40:00.000-12:00

Summer holidays........the ideal time every kid in school used to look forward to.....its the time for fun!!
We are so in love with chennai!!that we hardly used go out of town! :)

summer time.....reminds me of endless hours of play........ice creams......exhibitions.......cycling........water melon......the marina.....
My paatis house had 'marudhani'(henna) tree......this was the time when we get to apply marudhani on our palms....funny patterns with circles!!all my cousins...used to wait in a queue ...and the ritual was an enjoyable one......

disastrous attempts to make ice cream at home......jus to end up with some kinda funny liquid!!
the yellow flower trees in the neighborhood used to be in full bloom.....echoing the spirit of summer....bright n beautiful......

The favorite past time...was "to play".......anything.......from cricket to marbles......!not to mention butterfly catching.....Frisbees ......
evenings used to be "cycling time"...my bicycle was my best buddy....used to try out all sorts of stunts to fall flat on the road!end up with scratches ...but walk home with a lot of pride!!(veera thazumbu!)

Summer vacations also used to have a bit of assignments .....now thats boring!

dad used to insist on reading newspaper everyday morning....also a page of "writing" to keep hand writing in good condition......me n my bro used to fight over who gets to color the picture that comes in the young world!

the regular power cuts also added value to the fun......it used to be the time to do star gazing!and moon watching.......moon chasing also in the agenda!
summer rains.....mangoes.......!yummy!

these little things seem so bygone....but memories still afresh.......its kinda refreshing , all the fun n frolic in the sun!being a kid is a privilege in its own ways!

Its the time to disco......

2007-04-22T02:34:00.000-12:00

i really mean...its the time to disco...!!!!to break free.......
to jus chill......

?

2007-04-17T04:08:00.000-12:00

where's the magic wand....oh i dont have one!! :(

Arranged or deranged!!

2007-04-14T18:30:00.000-12:00

Man ...this arranged wedding crap is really really funny!!so how do we still find a bride/bridegroom....
so evolved we ve become thanks to "liberalization"(now that influences even the way u breathe in this country)...but we still are so loyal to "ponnu pakkradhu'!!ceremony.....we follow it to a T.I really wonder why do u still look for a girl/guy who looks like say a stereotype......."wanted fair...educated...tall....well mannered....blah...blah..."

Its really a welcome relief to see a lot of families encourage children choosing their own life partners....being their support system and respecting their decision!!

ultimately......u arrange or " they "arrange......what matters is how far would u love the person for being what they are!!and how much of happiness and understanding they share!

Adha vittutu...ponna pakrennu vandhu!!!

what if the girl puts on weight after marriage ...or gets tanned or something!!i jus cant stop laughing at all this stupidity!!

Nowadays everybody is aware of what they want....thay have an independent mind.....think about it....!!
its high time "the groom to be"....becomes mores sensible and accepts a " life partner" rather than choosing a girl like a commodity...its not a business deal for heavens sake.i kno it may sound pretty old...for the times we are living in....but sad there are still people who make it look like we ve never changed for the good at all!!

Still they do get dowry!!if the guy is working/living abroad ....then the girl's family is treated like ...u never want to kno!!!grow up people!!!

its ultimately a union of two individuals and their life together......so let them decide.....don't make it so complicated.....

Marriage is an age old institution its a respectable one....it has definitely added value to lives of innumerable individuals.....it has been the reason for happiness in many people's lifes...
so let it continue to be so......

Am really shocked at the way some people treat a wedding as just a business opportunity!!

I am really happy for all those who ve been lucky enough to find their loved one for life!!
the others have a tough time....sad!

tall!!u kno

2007-04-08T03:00:00.000-12:00

standing tall!!

ignorance is bliss.......

2007-04-06T00:47:00.000-12:00

ignorance is bliss.......they say....!!
would a scholar....or a thorough academecian or a scientist agree!!??with this statement....

perceptions differ.....they say.........do they differ according to the person u want to win an argument over!!???

u realise a mistake.....suddenly people tell ....you are emotional...sensitive...blah blah......u jus listen.....!!isnt it jus capitalising on someone's guilt!!

i am this to u.......that to u.........and something else to someone!!....empty promises.....wrong signals....so whose nose breaks.....(tamil translation will be funnier!!)

never ever trust the line ...." i am your friend forever"......they look nice on cards.....people who really mean it......have no need to say it.....never!!

" why don't you do this?? "free advice.......please show them the door!!!

a misnomer called "love"....the most under rated emotion!!the most easily dumped one......we jus customize it...trim it...dress it up.........who cares....we all are practical.....

practical about what is our convenience...!!

so end of the day ........yar enna sonnalum......life's like that!!! :)
jus end up living it....true to the heart that faithfully keeps us alive inspite of "us being us"!!!!

p.s: no strings attached.........to anyone i ever knew............

Nameless..........

2007-03-29T17:57:00.000-12:00

where does the road begin.....for a restless soul to rediscover life!!
trapped in a body...where the mind is so confused.....so unclear.....

but the dreams are big.....
the canvas is bigger....
the picture i want to paint is jus in my mind........

how do i give it a shape........

where do i begin.......

or is there a limitation....!!??

is wanting something a limitation that keeps satisfaction away......
how easy or difficult it is to compromise................

the tiny seed does it.....breaks the hard ground in search of light....n ultimately life!!

so when is there gonna be light!!!or do i not see it!!??

hmmmm........!

one!!n only......

2007-03-27T21:57:00.000-12:00

cute one!!

2007-03-25T17:43:00.000-12:00

Easy.....

2007-03-22T16:24:00.000-12:00

whats the ideal formula to be happy.....its jus feeling happy!!!never fix anyone as a source of ones happiness!!na... na..... thats a deadly mistake!!!

crazy..

2007-03-19T15:50:00.000-12:00

what happens if a bunch of strangers are thrown in to a new situation....for say, some period of time....they ve got to coexist ...breaking the ice...making conversations....trying to get the best out of the time together!!no judging...no commitments...etc

voila!!thats a recepie for an unexpected hit!!(according to me!!)

it has happened a couple of times with me....
You do not plan anything.....it jus happens.....

i guess that s the secret of life as well!!
u never kno whats comin up..............next....

And for all that u know.....when u keep planning for something....for a pretty long time....things pretty much turn out the way we don't want it to!!

Last week had a great time...hanging out with new people....a new location!!!cool!!

its really wierd when it comes to people u can comprehend!!!

deja vu!!

u know what they r gonna say...how they l react!!!so ....boring!!

so the element of surprise ...not there!!!

hmmm....such encounters with total strangers help us get a newer perspective!!

Committed to my dreams:)

2007-03-02T00:46:00.000-12:00

Whats in life....whats gonna make me happy...what are the rules of the game.....

i would noy say life is too unfair....its just elusive...u think u ve got it but sigh........it jus disappears.....

There are so many "want to do's" but "how to do" is a big question...

You see life just moving swiftly for a blessed few....who get to do what they love...!!

but it seems all nice...but for that to happen....i donno.....who is the chosen one....!!

I have always wanted to do one thing in my life .....to take pictures ......of all that captures my imagination....i ve had countless moments in life where i had wished ........"i wish i had a camera!!".People take it as a joke....they know for sure when they give me a camera all that i can capture is ...sky....trees....birds...etc!!but to jus stop n enjoi all that beauty thats around is a blessing....words cannot explain the happiness i get when i see a beautiful sunrise ...a tiny dew drop.....

And when i write what i feel its jus like magic.... i dont need people who jus use you as a stop-by shelter......i am better off alone.....

i would someday go on a trip alone......with a camera , some good books ...." me " as my company.....coz when someone steps in they r bound to break your heart!!

so ...i dont stop living .......i ve been given just one chance.....

i may be tagged so many things by people i trusted....i am tired of expecting people to understand what s in my heart......no one ever tries....

i am cool....

lets jus see where the road heads......i would want to be a free bird.......the invisible chain is beginning to loosen.........i jus wanna have fun!!!

sometimes...it does get on to u!!

2007-02-26T16:23:00.000-12:00

certain things jus put me off.....
so what can a poor soul do....

hmmmm.......

actually nothing!!!

so why am i writing this........

i really dont kno....

hope i get something nice to write about the next time......

hope.... :)

So where is the funny bone?

2007-02-13T07:38:00.000-12:00

Really wish i could narrow down on jus one nerve that can make me stay cool.....i l personally make a deal that i l provide it with all the nutrients to keep me jus cool!!
so that the "nail biting " tension never happens!!
my case it becomes magnified because of certain "helpful thinking" that hits panic button every 2 second!!
i worry unnecessarily even when i am not the one in trouble.....may be its even someone i never ever knew!

man !!what do i do.....i jus dont wanna panic for stupid things...then "panic" will loose its respect!!

one good thing i ve learned over the years is ...i use my brain like a music player...
i jus play songs i like whenever i need to relax.....believe me i can hear the song jus like the original track...no missing lyrics...no out of tune!!problem!!!
strange!!!
i want a remote to stop ...........even worrying remotely for stupid things.....

i wanna jus chill!!!and keep smilin....not troubling my little brain!!:)

The moon is quite far!!so what?

2007-02-11T17:24:00.000-12:00

My all time great company...is "the moon"!!!!
when there is a lonleiness that hits u hard sometimes....out of the blue...the solution also lies there...
the quiet and understanding moon!!:)

theres a calm and smiling companion who makes u laugh...playing hide n seek !!

you may not be within my reach......but you make me happy!!

just love it!

2007-02-07T07:17:00.000-12:00

Tere bina zindagi se koyi, shikwa, to nahi, shikwa nahi, shikwa nahi, shikwa nahi
Tere bina zindagi bhi lekin, zindagi, to nahi, zindagi nahi, zindagi nahi, zindagi nahi
Tere bina zindagi se koyi, shikwa, to nahi

Kaash aisa ho tere qadmo se, chun ke manzil chale aur kahi door kahi - 2
Tum gar saath ho, manzilo ki kami to nahi
Tere bina zindagi se koyi, shikwa, to nahi

Jee mein aata hai, tere daaman mein, sar jhuka ke ham rote rahe, rote rahe - 2
Teri bhi aankho mein, aansuo ki nami to nahi
Tere bina zindagi se koyi, shikwa, to nahi,
shikwa nahi, shikwa nahi, shikwa nahi
Tere bina zindagi bhi lekin, zindagi, to nahi,
zindagi nahi, zindagi nahi, zindagi nahi

Tum jo keh do to aaj ki raat, chaand doobega nahi, raat ko rok lo -2
Raat ki baat hai, aur zindagi baaki to nahi
Tere bina zindagi se koyi, shikwa, to nahi,
shikwa nahi, shikwa nahi, shikwa nahi
Tere bina zindagi bhi lekin, zindagi, to nahi,
zindagi nahi, zindagi nahi, zindagi nahi

this is a beautiful song......i saw this movie loooong time back....its a song that has stayed in my memory ever since....its simply wonderful!!!

man!!this is too much!!

2007-02-06T03:24:00.000-12:00

there should be a rationality in facing troubles....but no ..it does not work out like that!!

there s always a big parcel that waits with my name and gets delivered on-time!!!

how many times do i hide the parcel...or try to dump it!!and squash it!!

but no....karthi has to again get the next month issue of the parcel also in advance!!

what a pity!!

one day its all over the next day its back.....

what does one do!!???

Dont they have a guide on this for dummies??

i am gonna .....be record holder for seeing more number of dead-ends....bottle necks....whatever u can call them!!

And i kno there are few passengers who are in the same boat!!!( i can hear them saying..."same blood",aloud!!)

so i am applying for a lifetime membership in " varuthapadadha valibar sangam!!""

teenie weenie smiles

2007-02-05T06:14:00.000-12:00

the canvas is really big.....u hit the right note u miss it .......but the tiny things that give happiness jus keeps on coming....it s how we recharge !!

the pretty moon hiding in the clouds....
the waves that shook hands....
the birds that flew by......
the water that plays mirror to the sky.......

the songs i like.....
the new recipie i try .....
the article i read.....
the movie i like........

these are tiny little things that never run out of stock...........to jus give a little relaxation to the worked up brain...to jus chill!!

?!?

2007-01-31T18:23:00.000-12:00

decorative words......plastic smiles........a nice face......!!sells!!!

reality...remains buried always...its never seen...
because real things and real people are simple and visible......
but what we want to see is a branded image.......class act...publicity......

truth is beautiful....in a way that it can sense real feelings of real people.......
aren't we blissfully living in oblivion.....pushing aside the realities in life.......
or is it ...that escapism comes easily.....

ambience of a restaurant rated on a page.......the other side of which speaks about hunger deaths!!is extremes life!!or is jus a simple case of neglect!!

books i l always love!!

2007-01-22T03:08:00.000-12:00

There are so many different genres of books that each one of us get to read...i really have got my fair share of reading different kinds of books...though not the serious literature stuff..but want to read them too......

School days ,got to read books ....starting from tinkle...tin tin,archies comics..... : D!!!they were fun...we used to fight like maniacs in school to read them!!

then got to read a lot of different stuff....

one book that has been an unforgettable experience is "The Roots"...it tells the story of a black man's family through ,i guess 7 generations.......its a must read!!
Also , i cannot forget "The Other Side Of Midnight"!!
its been quite a while since i ve read any good book....got to catch up.....wanna read lots of good books!!rather books that can be enjoyed!!

Am i in the Same planet!!

2007-01-22T02:51:00.000-12:00

karthi's having difficulties in understanding certain things!!
man!!! trignomentry in school was much more decipherable!!!anyways sailing along........that seems to be an easy option!!
And when will i get what i am looking for.....this "waiting 's" really boring!

I dont kno!!

2007-01-18T02:37:00.000-12:00

what you want is not what you get!!??
or ......is it
What u get is what you are supposed to want!??

and by the way who decides all this!!??

and is choice jus a "word" or reality!!

Partial Differentiation!!

2007-01-17T18:12:00.000-12:00

its not maths n numbers am thinkin about!!
A lots been debated on television about "racism"....but its been happening in a slightly different style in our very own surroundings since god knows when!!
Racism may be the mother of all the differentiation....but its siblings.....the " partial differentitaion "that happens here is not any lesser in traumatising people !!

U study in a school,the teacher picks up only the fair skinned for a dance when u are just 5/6 yrs old.......does it not leave an impact in the child's brain!!abt how inferior it is to be brown skinned...!!??
Here again , the invites for annual day is distributed but the "rich" ones are given a card thats as thick as a notebook!!whereas the not so rich are given invites that resemble paper towels!!

so whats the purpose for these acts!!??when school is a place where one is moulded and taught to be a nice human being!

Again, the bride/bride groom hunting....man !!! one shoul read those matrimonial columns ,its like u want a commodity...which is of a certain color,certain size,certain sect of the society!!
We all have become global citizens....our thinking has opened up...really??we still practise this differetiation in various forms ...what does this say about our stone age thinking style!at least then people did not go to big institutes and get big degrees!!and boast of being the evolved human beings!

No point blaming the society.....its in the "hands" of individuals rather, " hearts"! .

Human skin tone can range from very dark to nearly colorless (appearing pinkish white due to the blood in the skin) in different people. Skin tone is determined by the amount and type of the pigment melanin in the skin.-courtesy Wikipedia

So is it right on our part to treat people badly just because the melanin content differs???
Do people have an ounce of extra brain or an extra pair of eyes!!jus because they think they are superior....ultimately all of us a HUMAN BEINGS.....
We share the same planet ,its our ultimate home beyond our virtual boundaries.....we all are one!! n each one of us have to realise it...to make this a better place to live!!

Pongal

2007-01-14T22:51:00.000-12:00

It was so much fun celebrating pongal when we were kids....sweet memories...
the first day "boghi" would be so exciting because all of get up sharp at some 4.00am in the morning and start burning stuff, ....throwing things in to that big fire was a great thing to do ,me n my brother used to split up the stuff to be thrown in to fire equally but ultimately end up stealing from the other's quota!!

the next day,pongal....get up early in the morning get ready and wear pudhu sattai!!and walk around to just show off the new dress!!
Eat chakkara pongal,vadai made by mom and off to paatti's house to play with cousins ,Semma collection, when the elders in the family bless us and give us money,we d run home to save it in the piggy bank!!that too, to see who gets more money ultimately....

the next two days go by with all that hectic playing ,going out with parents......beach....good food etc etc....Atthai or chitappa used to take all of us ,the kutties to the TradeFair ,Temple etc ,used to be so much fun!!

All these days the kolam we put is very special.....me n my brother used to fight as to who will color which portion of the kolam....n ultimately we l end up fighting with atthai who should give us permission to color her beautiful kolam!!.
During every festival the pooja session is more entertaining because we l fight for things like who will handle the bell during the aarthi and who gets to do aarthi first!!!

the night before pongal amma puts beautiful arisimavu kolam in the hall with kaavi borders...the next morning the house looks bright an beautiful!!Also waiting impatiently for dad to break karumbu in to small pieces was fun!!
Every year we used to visit dad's relatives who were in to farming ,in the outskirts of Chennai,where we get to see the real pongal festivities.......
Good old days!!Festivals are always a nice way to enjoi!!

thinking....

2007-01-14T22:02:00.000-12:00

Alone.....in search of a space to live a life that’ s self-fulfilling and
gives the soul a happiness out of purpose...
Life's all about taking the big leap to reach the destination of our desire....the herd lives on , but one must make a difference.....daring to be different makes one not just exist!!

the ray of light!!

2007-01-12T00:56:00.000-12:00

yesterday morning during the trip to college i got to see the clouds , there was a thin streak of light.....it then extended to jus let the sun rise n shine....the rays of light piercing into the foggy blanket....it was a beautiful sight...the rays were showering its warmth screaming aloud the arrival of yet another new day....

There seems to be darkness n lonelieness sometimes...may be its a moment that leads to certain self revelations....it tells us how much can we fight against like a brave warrior.....
the end of it comes light...happiness....victory.....
And the courage to go on!!!

These rays of light do enlighten the world for both rich n the poor....beyond man-made boundaries that divides just hearts!!..these rays make the world shine...nature has a lesson in its all forms....its for us to see ...beyond the materialism "n" the mad rush for something unknown!!!

The coolest pair of coolers

2007-01-12T00:48:00.000-12:00

How nice would it be if we can design coolers...that can help us see through the most toughest situation.....it should only show us the positives!!cool na!!

i kno i kno .......its expensive we don't get it for money!!
all it costs is some " past experience" n may be some "open mindedness"theory learnt byheart!

A new turn...

2007-01-07T17:37:00.000-12:00

a new turn in life.....responsibilities are jus comin one after another.....i still wanna be that fun loving me!i jus wanna attach a pair of wings...and fly high....
but it does not work that way na!!

Life .....................is soooooooooooooooo unpredictable!!!

Hot Shot!

2007-01-04T18:16:00.000-12:00

A few pics taken on a nice evening from my terrace.....the 3 rd one is my fav!
thanks to virus!!for the camera!

V for Vulnerability

2006-12-25T20:30:00.000-12:00

whats more difficult in life....its being vulnerable,more than anything else!!
i have always wondered why there are some people who look so withdrawn and live inside a small circle...though its an extreme thing to do...guess they would have learnt their lessons early!
i always used to bully "somebody",askin them to open up ,talk n become very social....now i've learnt the flipside of it ..if you dont meet the right people!!
The most damaging side of being vulnerable is unnecessary people point fingers at you..though one does not need to give a damn about it....
It can really be a pain!!
And losing those closely guarded things of life which you teasure...the emotions etc...is jus too irritating!
Choose the right people to love n share ...otherwise its jus a waste!!

Its rather better to be at "one-arm" distance from people!!because almost everyone you see seems to hurt you at some point of time!!

Being at a lesser position when it comes to wealth or education...can be easily overcome with hardwork......but being vulnerable jus because of accepting someone in to your life and letting them exploit you emotionally is an unforgivable offence on the part of ourselves for being so foolish ..... And people you are breaking someones heart....do remember that!!

vetti to the core!!

2006-12-25T19:45:00.000-12:00

what am i doing since my "exams" got over .....
my only refuge is tv!!
Been watching so many movies.....man !!each movie takes u in to a completely different realm of imagination..am actually talking about the good ones!!

watched "Incredibles"!!he !he! nice movie!,
"Sleepless in Seattle"!!they look so cute together:) i also like their movie "You've got mail"!!its toooooooo gooooood........
Also got to watch "Mr&Mrs Iyer", sigh!....................rahul bose(drooooooolllllll...) n konkona have just left me speechless....the script,the location,their chemistry.....jus too good!!
i ve watched this movie so many times but still every time i watch it ...it jus hits your head that there are so many divides that rule us till date!!inspite of the claims of having become "global" citizens!!!god help us!!

Watched page3 last night ! each individual is a biggest puzzle on earth!scarry!
And saw Vettayadu...jus a perfect movie...i am crazy about the songs in that movie..i jus love them!

the movie marathon , hence....continues......way to go!

c'est fini!!

2006-12-22T02:56:00.000-12:00

My exams are over!!!sigh......one big task completed!!
All those mindless answers written....all the books used......
hated the sight of those pink devilish question papers!!!

anyways a nice way to unwind...was a visit to bessie beach last evening....
it was a bit less crowded ,thank god!!

a visit to a nearby temple n a church was really nice !!!
was too tired for all that travelling but its okay....

wanna do so many things in these holidays...but , the lazy goose i am ...ended up waking up pretty late today..and for all u might think, the rest of the day was dutifully spent infront of the TV!!!bad girl!!

Wanna really clean up the house and find a place for all my books that have been flooding the floor since the exam timetable came out!!
The planning is done........ so the real action starts from tomorrow!!!
Mission "clean da house" starts tomorrow at dawn( i believe i can wake up early!!!!i do!!)!!!

Where r u...

2006-12-22T02:24:00.000-12:00

i want u...
i love u......

but

where r u....

i want u.....to see the world.......

to re-live each of those beautiful moments i want to treasure,
to see things that can bring a big smile on my face....
to capture all that beauty God has bestowed upon this world...
the sparkling dew drop!
the flocking birds!
the dancing trees!
the romantic sky!
the smiling stars!
the pretty flowers!

where r u ...oh!my camera....find me soon....sooner than i find u!!!

ThE YoU KnO WhO

2006-12-18T03:14:00.000-12:00

i know am too old to be scared of exams...not a school kid !but still...... exams hurt...ouch!!!....
no no......i dont want to talk about "da preparation" which i did...:(
i can really not talk about the "abundance " of books that matches our"Complex Syllabus paper"....
ok...here goes...one has to master the syllabus paper first to write the exam!!!!and believe me its some difficult 300 yr old code!! to crack.......yup!

i can certainly get no words when i see the rest (ok...most) of my class...literally quote ...."page numbers....line numbers"(guess "word numbers"!!!) too...from the book...
man!!!how do they do it.....

And to talk about the past papers (as in the ones where exam is over ...) is,
shhhh.......... a taboo....!!

one nice ..sweet thing that happened amidst all the chaos for me ........was to catch the sight of the beautiful sunrise on the misty mornings along ECR....awesome!!!!
A nice relaxation before exams.....thanx to my college bus that takes that route in the morning!!

the exam ....is not over yet !!!so i better go study!!

Huchoooo!!

2006-11-17T05:21:00.000-12:00

Its cold out here.....to top it ..now i too am infected with a bad,stupid cold!!!
Every one around me in class were busy coughing away throught the week...i was a bit proud of my immunity!!hell...finally i ve ended up with the same old cold!!

Today was scarry coz we had classes and they have Ac's and my lovely classmates love to freeze to death...
I chose to wear my sweater...sigh....never in my life did i wear a sweater to school!
so, one can imagine how much i was bullied.....
God ! they were jus embarassing me !!big time!!
I chose to stick to my sweater....and it kept me warm!(he he ....the obvious!)

The buses started late, somehow made that journey to reach home at 9.00pm.
Hope this nagging cold says goodbye soon..u kno exams are comin up and i have to start touching my books!!!

Blah ........

2006-11-16T20:14:00.000-12:00

these lines jus came to my mind from nowhere....

Iloved you so much
that
i almost forgot
that
you never did!!

adade acharyakuri!!!

Good , Bad and the others!!

2006-11-16T07:05:00.000-12:00

College is coming to a close...am i supposed to be happy or sad?easy answer is i do not know!!??
Its been quite a journey .... though there' s lots i ve already spoken about the negatives ...well!! it indeed has taught me lotsa things , made me laugh!! have fun ...meet "new" people....try out my non-stop-nonsense,my sincere apologies to the King of EAR(S) ...especially the divisional manager of my class!!.
Though initially i had a lot of apprehensions...i really liked the campus from day 1..since i was not used to serious class attending business! in my u.g i had lotsa difficuilties sitting in class ,the first semester.

fIRST DAY
I remember...coming back from college in the bus...our bus stopped on the way to pick up a bunch of people travelling in a different bus coz it broke down ...this tall thin girl walks up .....first thing i noticed about her was her message typing speed!!(man !!she was typing like a maniac!!)...so we ve since then shared a great journey of some of the most interesting converastions...knowing each other...arguing ...fighting..etc etc !!

ThE BuS

This routine begins everyday at 5.oo am in the morning ...i wake up to the alarm in my mobile and since then keep extending the time till say 6.00 am!!Some how frantically get ready...and the toughest part is to CATCH the bus.....though i kinda get a message on when the bus in comin pretty much all the days....
i end up chasing the bus...running....etc!
one Classmate of mine takes the same bus at the same stop...
i l type a message to her

"am coming"-meaning , stop the bus if i dont make it on time!!
and invariably i get a reply from her
"Me too"!!-meaning she l end up coming late....actually later than me!!

so its a bit of a circus everyday!

TemPle

I jus love that Pillayar kovil in my campus.....whenever i go there my mind relaxes...i get a lot of inner strength n peace!!so i make a silent prayer every morning when i enter the campus.

"ThE School ChildREn " Trees

Theres this salt marsh opposite to my campus..which i had an amazing opportunity to visit once ...its beautiful!!
Also another attraction there.......... is a bunch of trees which look to me like kids standing in school or morning prayer that too in perfect Height order!!Awesome....When the course began i ve seen them dry and sad looking but now they look so happy and green!its a real treat to watch them everyday.....not to mention the pretty birds and the cute little creeks during the rains!!

ClaSses

Ok this was also an intersting phenomenon everyday....!!I sit in class....and yes i used to take notes and yes i remember listening to class!!
Wokay! the truth is class hours have been the most adventurous ones!!
Be it passing notes,talking(which i always do!),getting caught!irritating a person sitting in the front....staying alert to pick up phone calls when the real cranky ones give a missed call!messaging of course....playing "chappal "football!..staring ouside the window!!etc etc....

Doing frantic presentations.....Group discussions....assignments.....TESTs....!!

And yes we do not kno in our class who is using who's pen!!
so i end up staring at my pen in someone elses hand ...thinking that looks like mine!!

Reading Newspaper is an important activity...yes! that too when classes are going on......

Some professors who just kept me n i guess ,the class ...too !...spellbound were Raj sir,Mahadevan Sir,Shekar sir....these people are a real gift to us in this college!
Stats sir! his conversations are evergreen..like ,
"see once u r gonna do like this ,my expectations are 99.9% u will fail"
"see...what is S?"
"u may ask your seniors... i do not want to name them"
"see...say hello to her"

It was fun times..some of the group assignments were a real joy to work on!!

StOres

All of us in the block have close to a 100% attendence at one place...our Stores!
Its our food reservoir!!Its become a habit to visit the stores atleast 5 times a day...
Stores anna ...by now knows what we want...so i go there and the first thing he asks me is "coffee daney ma!".But one has to be careful on somedays like Birthday etc those are the days we dread visiting the stores..of course the one who celebrates Birthday goes home with an empty wallet!

LaB

he he!its the most exploited place after the classroom in many different senses...the dim lighting!!!!ahem ahem.....u kno!!
but all that ......all of them in our block do without fail is "to orkut" its become like a disease!!

HosTel
The most dreaded place....for its food !(the girls hostel!!).....but our only refuge !!

..theres more i wanna write...and will do it.....now gonna doze off!!

Cloud Crazy.....

2006-11-15T15:19:00.000-12:00

I am crazy about clouds...dunno y dunno y.....
It just makes me feel like i am flying in the air....
soft ,fluffy,cotton candy......clouds...mmmmmm......
I ve just been in love with them ever since my school days......
I can feel a sense of peace and calm when am distressed ...once i see the sky....
beautiful clouds happily swaying along.....
i can read them.....i feel like am some kinda code breaker when i decipher patterns in the sky.....
its jus amazing!!!
he he...i took this pic!!!

Break Free.....

2006-11-13T00:27:00.000-12:00

How can i bury all...............those unwanted thoughts that irritate me like these Advertisements inbetween my favourite Tv show.....!!where's the remote.....!!???These Thoughts are like a shadow that follows you 24/7!!!
Sometimes it seems complex...certain thoughts...ideologies....but in a different situtation it turns meaningless....I guess the more we think ........the more we complicate stuff ....!!guess thinking is not "IN"!!!(so free!!!)
I sometimes tend to over think!!!(whatever that means!!)....and irritate my tiny little brain!!
Its just a matter of us not letting useless things bother us...

So here i go with a shovel....and bury my useless thoughts... ..... to see them never again!!!
During my school i used to clean up the blackboard every morning b4 the classes and write a new thought everyday.....now that seems like a solution..

Jus an empty canvas every day !! no backups or unnecessary rewinds.... would fuel the excitement to live the new and undiscovered moment...

H & R are too important .........

2006-11-10T01:06:00.000-12:00

Now what does HR mean ?...well it has a meaning which the texts speak about in volumes ...the MBA's across the globe try to figure out in their organizations......
but wait.....i ve learnt it in a New Ishtyle!
Practicality is the Mantra.......where i learnt this Skill...
So the one's with "the skill" ...will survive ...and the rest will be pushed to.....hell!!

So whats new u may ask........u learn different dimensions ...different techniques different ...whatever.....everyday,every minute...okay every second.
Now we all began by "mingling" ..u kno we had an open mind....
we try out new company everyday....we learn about that person and propagate our "learnings".
Every evening we have Group Discussions where we help each other know the other person better ......we talk ,specifically about how bad they are!!and sometimes how good too..(possibility:0.5%)
We hate a person jus because they are associated or hang around with some other person who we hate (with all alpahabets in caps!!)...sounds like some parallel lines theory!
Also we Dont see eye to eye with that one "bad " person...like some kinda gangster movie..!!

We don't believe in the theory of "right place...right time..." (translates in to IDAM PORUL EVAL in Tamil).
Also InformationSharing is a crime...!!so we don't do it...we seal all the info we kno in an airtight,leak proof container and hide it !
We also practice something called "oh! am so aloof" technique(it does help ...really u can count on me!).
Also we promote innocence like hell ...man! so many innocent souls...sad....so we consider it our duty to always stand by them!!
We ve learnt to be coherent all da time...we move together in "groups" (no one knows they r part of which group...themselves thats the funda) .
So to sum it up ...........wanna learn H & R ......we'l teach...!!

A hEarTy LaUgh

2006-11-06T17:55:00.000-12:00

Watched a play "FOOLS" last sunday......at AllianceFrancaise...
it is quiet ironic that the play is called so...coz it was an intelligently crafted piece of work....
the dialouges..the execution...the timing...everything was awesome!!!
me ,chinky,priya n maria went ............ all of us were laughing away throught!!it was a nice way to spend a typically lazy sunday evening!.The weather was jus perfect ......to sip away steaming hot coffee , chatting ....and finally we let the place..!
Me n maria visited a nearby church....sat for a few peaceful moments....it felt nice....
The day turned out pretty nice....doing different things jus like that is fun!!

blah blah

2006-11-04T03:44:00.000-12:00

wanted to write about so many things over the week....but could not find time!
now that i found time i ve almost lost track of what i wanted to write about...!! : )

too tired ....!!

today maha came home....was jus talkin with her for sometime....
i talk to "balanced people" in my class...the only thing that strikes my mind is ...how wrong it is to be balanced...in a place that is all screwed up!!????

The surroundings u survive in mould your emotions and thought process at that point in time...
so my gloomy mood is all thanks to the "Temple of kindness and good things" ...ma wonderful class....!!!

thank god ...the trauma is gonna be over soon!!

and yes the moon 's looking awesome today!!

guess i better get some sleep....zzzzzzzzzzzzzz...................

aLL tHAt yOU vE gOT

2006-10-29T02:36:00.000-12:00

what you ve got is " reality"....what's not............... is the fuel to propel us to get ........what we think is , missing...
but what if ? .........what you like is something which seems not meant for you , then tell yourself that its not meant for u(better than wasting time!)... bcoz what is meant for us will be there for us anyday!

This "philosophy" or whatever!!? applies definitely to people!!!
Someone u like...should never feel uneasy about the fact that u like that person....so if that kinda reaction's there .... then the equation is unbalanced....so ditch it!But a true liking, say lingers in some corner......so what??!! all that u can do is " jus move on".

Its better than listening to unnecessary, nonsensical advice from people....

So live on with all that love and a big heart......!!!
the people who can understand us and love us, as we are .....will come along......(definitely!:) )
so we l learn to live what we ve got.....

Have a heart that never hates......its too "idealistic" but the advantage here is........it relieves one of a bad case of "blood pressure"!!
we will meet more strangers and become more stranger and difficuilt to comprehend and survive all the "non-understanding" people... and yeah learn to PRIORATIZE!!(u kno....).

After all its once that we live......so we l make it worth living!!!!!
and for all that i care ....to all those who jump in with a piece of critical advice........please take a plane to neverland!! Lets keep on loving.......our own lives..... the rest will fall in place!

first step.......

2006-10-23T02:48:00.000-12:00

i was jus walkin on the sea shore .........a tender breeze gently kissed my forehead....
waves just reaching up to the shore to say "hi!" .......and the soft sand feels so nice under my feet......
i jus kept on walkin ...admiring the blue sea..the orange sky.......the serenity.......

and jus then , i stumbled upon something.........
and guess what i found.......
a tiny little key.........
to unlock a thousand different possibilites.......

a tiny little key........
i ve been searchin all these years.........

To count the stars........

2006-10-14T02:49:00.000-12:00

what would it be to keep staring at the sky ....and count all the stars...before the sun comes up!!!!

what would it be like,to count the numerous waves that hit the shore in a day...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what would it be like to jus lose track of time and not be bored and be happy!!!!

its possible....if i were a painter.... a sculptor.........a musician..................

but wat to do .....am not one of them.............. :(

Complicated

2006-10-10T22:44:00.000-12:00

Things seem more complicated...decisions seem wrong........life seems to be a bigger challenge than i thought it was........

Living in the past is the worst nightmare........

If only there was a rewind button for life or a fast forward button........

here i am ,the same me with all my confidence and goals and dreams......yearning for my own share of happiness.......and to taste success.......

What i ve learnt in the past 3 years of my life is enough for eternity , i ve learnt so many things the tough way......
may be thats how it is......

i jus do not want to be yet another person.....and in my journey so far ....i ve faced a lot of ppl who ve told me that i need to change......

I AM WHAT I AM......i should be either loved or hated for that.....
i stick to my own set of values and beliefs.....
i am very much human ....i know to love , to hate....to laugh , to cry......may be i don't do it like the "innocent one's" .....
i believe that "human beings with a heart do exist".......who r not bound by "silly n filmy" human emotions...they are the ones who stand above the rest!!
i ve been hurt by the one's i loved.....happens na...its not too uncomman!!!so i continue my journey......

here i am standing at yet another decisive point in my life.......my quest begins.......for a life with a meaning!

"DAKSHA 06"

2006-10-08T02:41:00.000-12:00

Our management meet "Daksha 2006" was organized on the 6 th and 7 th of this month .
There was lots that i saw during these days ....about our class....people around....interesting things.....

I really admired the dedication some of my friends(juniors too) had shown...the silent players , who literally shy away from all "da publicity" .They had the determination to work 24/7 without really cribbing.Kudos to them!

There were a lot of things happening during the course of events.....somebody searching for a pen, frantically when it was in their own pocket!....somebody jus yelling at , even the doggy! walkin on the road(tension u see...!).
Hostel stay!!was the fun part(!)our hostel friends do deserve an AWARD for survivng in such difficult conditions ............... also we could see how each of us were "worlds" apart!!!.With tension to the power 'n' in the air, everyone barkin at each other...it was "CHAOTIC "!

On the day of the event, things jus began happening ...people started comin in.......the people who presided over as chief guests on both the days had something interesting to talk about....which we all enjoyed...

Our own touch to the event was ,bringing out a magazine for the first time!!!!i personally was so happy to see it printed and to have the copy in my hand....... felt like holding a baby !!!(what priya!!?wat say?....).

There were so many negatives....road blocks......bottle necks (and many more adjectives.......in this genre!!)in various shapes and sizes which we encountered all the way(you know only they make our lives interesting,i could say!).

The Mega event , for me was the "quiz"..... i love to watch them, a big fan of green teen quiz,BQC,Masterminds,TataCrucibles,Acumen.....etc,I am a quiz fanatic.If you , by chance sit next to me , during a quiz....u need an armour to protect u coz i get so "violent", if i know the answer or even if i don't know it (he he , jus kidding....thats to describe how excited i get!so no fear... : ) ).

The event came to a close ....it was a great learning experience....
There may have been many flaws...but ultimately whatever happened those two days...will be etched forever in our memories.....for a long , long time to come!!!!And the fun part of the whole package was jus a one time experience!.

My share of fun came in , like......

1) riding a bike along the it highway at full speed with a beautiful cloud cover and an awesome breeze!!!-thanks to maria n that red shirt junior!
2) takin a picture of a butterfly....
3) cloud watchin at 1.00 pm in the night,with the moon n stars playin hide n seek
4) thanks to priya.......... for telling us there were ghosts (eeks!) in campus ,when we went in the dark to retrieve susu's bag at around 2.00 pm in the night!
5) chasing priya on the way to hostel...he he!(looked like we were running a marathon or sumthin!)

To let go.....

2006-09-29T02:06:00.000-12:00

To let go is a difficult task.........its the toughest job......imagine scooping some sand in your palm and watch it slip away slowly .....you feel and think, you have something but before you enjoy it you've lost it already.
Life has its own share of such situations where you jus "let go...",it may be material possessions.......people, ideas ,anything!

Things you love,treasure,get attached to ....all are bound by this rule!
When you have no other option its better just to free your mind of that sense of"possessing" whatever it is.....imagine how life was before .... we still were alive ... we 'l live once again!

To be able to let go is.....not to be "stagnant".....life obviously goes on.....but this rule is never applicable to ambitions,goals...etc.So we l jus stick to things that will stick to us...lookin at the brighter side of life! :)
But to learn to "let go" is the practicality of life!

Everyday has something new in store for us....thats the way it is!

A visit to the zoo....

2006-09-25T02:29:00.000-12:00

Four of us from our class went on a mission....but as usual screwed up the plan...and where did we land up?in the adjacent compound...and it was ....incidentally...."the zoo".
What is so nice about being in a zoo...u may ask...that too when u r not exactly a school kid......
believe me it was one great experience !!!!

Am the kind who gets excited seeing these animals even on television...so looking at them at a closer range and when they are alive is a great thing for me!!

we four were an odd bunch of strangers...who just share the sheer admiration for nature!!so we had fun watching tiger , zeebra , giraffe ,parrots...etc etc... one more great day in my account!

In all i ve had soooooooooooooooooo much fun!!!!!!!

i may sound like a school kid ....but its okay yaar!!!!

spine.....no sign!!???

2006-09-12T06:11:00.000-12:00

how can you not take a stand in life!how long will others dictate terms....who are you as an individual......what is that you like or dislike...
who are you to yourself....

and all these things are conveniently forgotten.....when the spine is "forgotten " or is it elastic????

hmmm.....sigh....for all those wasted spines!!

but i am ready to forget my spine to get things done..!so whats wrong....
absolutely nothing!!!!nothing at all.

use what god's given to us...!no arguments...!!

note:this is jus an observation(see i am a manager!!) not intended to anyone who i ever knew !!!

Music is , the cure!

2006-09-12T05:46:00.000-12:00

what can music do to u?especially the ones who really don't have an inclination to it!(is there anyone like it!!?).....it can believe me...work wonders...

language ...not a barrier
style ....not a barrier
its like a breath of fresh air that anyone enjoy's!

we (atleast most of us)identify with film music.....

they simply work on your mood!

there's a song for every emotion....well written verses which carry you away .....to just another world.....

it looks like we suddenly are relieved of the stress that capitalises on our vulnerability and emotional quotient....we are as free as a bird....flocking and swaying according to the rythms....

music is jus a super stress reliever...

no wonder all these F.M channels are cashing in!!but sometimes it becomes too much to take....
the last thing one wants to listen to is a really sad number ...when you are already in a pathetic mood!he! he! happens a lot of times because the knob is turned on by someone else....like during we travel!

but end of the day it is byfar a language that every soul can understand !!

i ve at present stuck my ears to this song...mitwa from kank...

i like the lyrics .....

mere man yeh batha de tu
kis oar chala hai tu
kya paya nahin tu ne
kya doond raha hai tu

jo hai unkahi
jo hai unsuni

woh baat kya hai batha....

mitwa...........

hmmm.....

saturday in college...

2006-09-09T01:08:00.000-12:00

star attraction today was a cool drizzle in the morning......
it was beautiful...and as the day went on the sky was full of fluffy...cotton ...clouds....looked like a generous serving of just white cream.....waiting to be tasted!!

lot of people did notice it !!!!happy i am!!!

beauty is around us.....jus stop for a minute to absorb and observe it!!!
it is energizing!!simple ways to keep ourselves alive!!

our college could make a good spot to photograph...especially for all the enthu beginners....like me...jus that i do have to buy a camera!!!

will do it soon!!:)

b.........a............d day

2006-09-08T03:13:00.000-12:00

okay so i was this close to missing the bus.....then everything bad happened
blastings blastings and more blastings...

more on the way.....

why do we not have a "special " class...so that geting blasted would become a ritual!!
sigh.........long day....!!

bus bus....

2006-09-07T03:45:00.000-12:00

its been quite an adventurous week with regards to my bus journey to college!!!
i am ....i would say accustomed to my "long long journey towards my college every day"...thanks to my u.g!
but the past few days have been exceptional .....
i slip off from my bed...and guess where i land up??
inside my college bus......
getting to my stop....ahem ahem !i should say is tougher than an Olympic 100 meters!
ok ...next step ....once i get in all i see is a bus that would ,i am sure have been in a junk yard some few days back.....
so what happens??!!

back pain ....neck pain...etc etc....

finally the day gets over in college ....with all that overflowing knowledge....u jus wanna enter in to the comforts of ur house......

now the suspense awaits.....
the bus which seems to be alright one minute..........BREAKS DOWN the next!
u r stranded in the middle of the road......in peak traffic.....
now all stunts begin....to reach home........get some sleep and again slip off the bed to end up in the bus again!!!!

so thats when u get irritated and say......

"bus".....bus!!!
(note:the second "bus" is hindi equivalent of ENOUGH!)