"The Project"

I definitely have to write about our project....

The special ingredients that made our project a success......

• Bharat's house.....his parents...their love n affection!
• our team's ....."focus"(he he!)
• the fun we all had together...
• aunty's lovely,yummy..... food!
• too much of mokkai!anyways that helped us ease our stress!
• sacrificing all our sunday's(no regrets........ was one fun experience!)
• maha n navitha's commitment .......they had to travel all the way from hostel to the city!
• deepika's laptop(not that we always worked with it....songs!ahem ahem!)
• anda's "unreactive" self!!(how much ever we pull his leg ..he never reacts!!)
• maria,deepa......me...always having fun....pillow fights!
• Bharath...always being patient....and exceptionally dedicated...always makin us laugh like crazy..with his "romantic look"!!
• our wonderful lunch sessions!
• A small nap....or we prefer to call it"siesta"!!!after the lunch!
• our endless discussions!!

lots n lots of things.....but above all......... we worked together!!made new friends!!learnt a lot of things together..

and with god's grace..things worked out ...and our final presentation went on well!!

Being loved!

Last sunday.....was a memorable one!!!a day very close to my heart!
It has become some sort of a routine...going to Bharat's house every sunday for project work....eight of us get together and have loads of fun!!
this week was also something like that...but as the day came to an end....people started acting very strange....people wanted to leave but actually no one left,it was getting late!!
Bharath was going up n down every few minutes.....he seemed so preoccupied!??
Finally we decided to leave .......and now comes the best part....i open the door the lights are out,i could see candles glowing gently....and people singing a birthday song for me!!!:)

It was a real surprise!was really overwhelming!
the hearts that really care for me,think of me as a friend....people ,with whom i have so much of fun!!

Thanks guys!

Then there was a "song and dance"session...it was hilarious!!
have you ever heard a fish sing!!?we all heard it that day!(ha ha!)
there was a stunning dance performance by gones!
smitha sang an awesome song!
anda ......wah!kya voice hai!!
deepika,chinky...sang!
love ya tall girl!


i always think..

i 'd love to be loved by lovable people!!

i am being loved!!feels great!

First best..

jus thought of a few first's....!in my life....


the first time i saw my little brother sit up when he was a small kid.....(the joy that came knew no bounds!)
the first time i made tea for my parents!
the first time i rode a bicycle(and miserably crashed in to a bush!)
the first time i read a science fiction("a journey to the center of the earth" by jules verne)
the first time i watched a romantic movie!(one fine day!)
the first time i won a few medals on a sports day in school(remember wearing it all the way home...from the stadium!)
the first time i participated in a debate in school....(man!it was terrifying....forgot my lines!!)
the first day in my new school....leaving behind my second home(my lovely old school!)
the first time i travelled alone in a public transport!
the first day in college...
the first time i bunked classes...
the first day when i took my friend for a ride on my bike....she was so excited!

my first crush.....

the first time me n my friend met....(after so many years of studying together, rediscovering the affection for each other)

there are so many more things...that, till date remain in our hearts as evergreen memories...never to be forgotten...some good ones ..some bad ones..
the bad ones are just a lesson and the key to more n more good things to come!

so remember the good ones......they are the basis of many big things to come in future!

It's my birthday!

Woke up this morning to a pleasant weather......amidst the horrible heat!of the summer, today was a welcome relief!.

Today also takes me to a new year ...in my life......new thoughts ...new directions......new ideas......a new perspective........the very new "me"!!
was a day filled with cute surprises!!
Thanks to all the wonderful people who made it possible!!thank god for sending me these wonderful people!to my life!thanks to my lovely parents....thanks to miss.p :)
(its ur style girl!!).
hey tallgirl!!u ve been soooo good to me!am not gonna thank u for that coz....its my birthday!ha ha !



jus a positive thought....

the sky is the limit.....!!i really wonder if its true....
may be there is nothing called "limit's" to which one can grow....and be more useful!and also be more loved!

Hectic!

Today was a bit too hectic...had lab exams....but thank god,went on well!inspite of all self-involvement going around, found a new bunch of people who really can help...and have the heart to help!!!had super fun with them!

Every single thing thats happening around does have a purpose.....it helps us identify the ugly side in some and the beautiful side in some people....


anyways.....hectic days will continue......and get carried over the following week too!thats one way to engage yourself completely .......and keep "characters" aside!

the sun is getting tooo hot!!!
evenings are so different....the time i come from college ....have fun in watchin the sky...and the awesome colors it displays.....truly amazing!!
My one good companion ....always has been the sky!
always look up and forget myself....
just enjoy !

Random thoughts!

Every time i decide not to pay attention to all this..but people just force it on me!.
so i have no choice but to write about all this......things may even look repetitve but...c mon...i need to speak out!!its after all my heart speak!

Sometimes i feel what other people do is somethin very wrong.....but they get away with it!!
you tell them that it is wrong.......and guess what you get ...you are too idealistic!.

worse..even if it a good friend ,if they do something wrong they don't care a damn to talk about it to you!!rather they don't jus have the guts to talk about it.......but jus hold on...in future if they have a problem ..its you who they come to ,with a sob....!!now you are" needed" rather than anything else!!.

The big fight is ,"what is right to you is not the same to me...!",its the most favorite statement used by the ESCAPIST's.
To hell with them....more than anything else be true to yourself...every mistake you do ...you are not cheating any one else but YOU!

There are the one's who act like ...."oh! i am so innocent...i dont even know a,b,c.. in alphabetical order!!"(u know what i mean!),they are the more important character's to look forward to...coz when they change..they do it in style!!.First thing they do is to shun people who ,even taught them that "a",comes first!

There are the other's who PROCLAIM to be diffrerent!!(different in may be spelling "different"!!).But they are more normal and believe me!! more predictable.....
they probably have misunderstood "DIFFERENT".

There are a few who are lost in their own sweet dreamy world.....devoid of any sense of the surroundings.....they are awake only to again go back to their sweet dreamy world!



There are this special kind of people...with kick ass attitude that i really adore.....you be good to me i be good to you.....or else you can go to hell!
I really want to be one of them!!
Go on ...your way....dont let worthless things hinder your wonderful journey ...
don't have to look for people.......you will obviously find the ones that matter to you the most.....on your way!!

Note:All i wanna say is the characters mentioned here exist in reality in flesh and blood in various forms,you come across them at various points in life....so i can't lie that these are fictious characters in my post!!!

learning.....

you learn a lot of things in life......on the way.......as you grow up.....
i ve learnt a lot from life....things that i never even thought of learning....
things no one can ever teach ....
things that help you go to the next level in life....

learn from good people ....as to how to be good...
learn from opportunistic people...as to how not to live for yourself...
learn from kids...as to how to be innocent....
learn from flowers ...to smile..
learn from birds to fly.....
learn from water to flow....wherever time takes you....
learn from trees to grow up and live a purposeful life...
learn from butterflies..to live a life that is short yet colorful....
learn from stars to shine ...
learn from the sky....to expand over a vast span of the earth......




learning never ends......
thats the only key to find out what life actually holds for us!!!!!

confused...

Am slightly confused...
ok....not slightly.........confused very much....

what is the reason....thats even more confusing....

i always sort out things...but now slightly dazed.....

hope my dear friend was here......

anyways i always retrace my path out of the maze........


i certainly will......i know!!

Out of the blue...

Do i see light at end of the tunnel or
Is it the happy fire flies?

Do i see happiness or
Is it the hustle n bustle of the wind?

Do i see my future or
Is it a big picture of my dreams?


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what is more important

is....

what people never see

is.......

a loving heart!!!!!

In College!!

one big boring day......i am posting this from the same boring college!!semester is coming to a close and classes are boring big time!!( ive used boring thrice to show the intensity!!!)
anyways call for the next class!!!!!!!

My new found love!

After having lived in this city for all these years ....one place i ve really fell in love,now, is the "besant nagar,beach". Awesome place....you get to see so many different people...families....a bunch of friends.....of course the omnipresent lovers..........and lotsa kids!!!!
its a fun place to be...i enjoy going there with my friends.....just gaping at the sky and the sea..
walk till the shore.....spend sometime in the water....run away from the countless waves that hit the shore!!

jus takes me back down the memory lane......we used to visit the marina every week...my dad used to take us there.....will play in the water for hours together ,then go to the nearby ice cream parlour..........it was a set routine!!fun n frolic!!

This beach is a place where you can bump in to a lot different kinds of poeple.....its just fun to sit n watch whats goin around.....little kids ,choosing the right time to trouble their parents!couples of various age's......a cranky set of friends......directly from their college to chill out(ahem!that could be most appropriately us!!).

anyways...my love for this place is just growing day by day!!
i would not mind even changing my residence nearby the beach!!you know!!!if i have the right opportunities!!so my new found love....here i come....okay !at present maybe every weekend!!but let's c what the future holds!!??

Use and Throw

No this is not a post on garbage disposal!rather its on how people dump people...............no, no i am not being pessimistic...its reality whatever you say!

You meet someone you know ..they ask you for directions ,you really know that place so well so u decide to help that person by actually accompanying them to the place!ok...now you are an extremely nice person.....but wait....there is an other dimension to this...you are a foolish person.......to have gone out of the way to help someone....and then if u accidentally meet that person and think of even asking them a small favor ....forget it!you are supposed to expect anything!thats forbidden...as per rules you can be a loser but not expect the other person to be the same!

I am not being sarcastic at all......you are needed only when you can be of any use...after that there is no point in "being in the picture"!

Its a practical world....no point in getting attached...being nice.......helping.....all rubbish!!!
i am not saying don't be nice...jus have a discretion in being nice.....
even if you want to talk to someone .....its better you ask them for some time in advance...better than the other person walking away when you are not even half way!even if its our good friend!!

Even if it is a phone call...make sure you do not waste the other person's time.....!!!
if its you in the middle of a meal......and a friend wants to talk...you can stop eating..but no guarantee that your friend will do that for you when you need to talk!

More than anything else make sure you never give up your own priorities...and end up being a fool!
Its a world where people change color instantly so beware....there are the good ones but they are almost nearing extinction!!
so do not allow yourself to be "used"....rather use people!!and move on...c'mon give the world what it wants.......let being nice be just in the fairy tales!!!!

Complexity

Every individual is a "complex" entity !its really a huge task trying to decipher what's actually going on in one's head!

You suddenly think you know the person.....and the next moment they appear to you as a complete stranger!

There are some who open up instantly and share things easily,some who are a bit reserved and take some time to actually talk!,the extreme form is someone who is really a tough nut to crack!(the ones who really are tight lipped n mysterious n .....basically the tough one's!!).


we almost spend half our lives trying to know people around and the rest half...maybe in trying to know our own self!
Any place ..be it work or study or u name it....its the people who make it HELL or HEAVEN!
Not every one can become a psychiatrist......it's just,i guess a matter of time you spend ..to really understand the person that helps!But it is a must knowing few important things about the person you are gonna, say....work with or whatever.It really makes a difference.

Any relationship .......for survival calls for complete understanding of the other person!now that's what all of us know....one more component that's also equally important is Mutual Respect.We must respect the feelings of the fellow being to really love them!
In a relationship any "Big Fight " really can get over....and peace could be brought back...but its the small little things that hurt feelings and inflicts a lot of pain that triggers more aggressive reactions.

its really mind boggling to imagine that your own friend , lover , anyone you know....... is a more complex bundle of emotions and feelings and beliefs.........that ,you can never be too sure and say....................." oh! i know him/her ! "

what if......!

what if all my desires come true......

one small wish ...that gets fulfilled jus in the blink of an eye!

one small hint and people understand what you want...
no arguments......not even a loud expression!

one small smile and all the sad things disappear in no time!

one small tear drop to wipe away all the distress!

just love n laughter all around the place!

where time just freezes.......!

And all good things are so close to you!


may be it is possible.......
may be it is!!

Wrong or What!

what classifies what is right and what is wrong?.Rather who classifies what is right or wrong?.
One is entitled to have an opinion about anything in this world....its common that a trivial issue like for example what color to choose to paint your house will bring up an endless argument where there would be 101 points favoring a preferred color,but the other person might just not be convinced!

Its really wierd that even things you have belief in over a long period of time..suddenly seems to be wrong!it suddenly dawns one day that what was right is actually wrong!
you strongly believe in something...advocate that ....but the person on the other end might just not see what you want him to see because his vision,thinking portrays or rather has a different definition for "right or wrong".

i dont really know if there is a common line of thinking between two different individuals...
i ve personally had a lot of arguments with people where i ve had my opinion...n others have their own!

probably what matters the most is how well one can convince that what they think is right!
it ultimately boils down to one point.....be heard!be loud and clear!
the louder you are the more "correct" you are!
the feeble thoughts and voices however ethically right they are are NEVER HEARD!.

But one thing is definite for sure.....one is the best judge of one's ownself!
you don't have to look around for a judge ,our own conscience is ideal enough to tell us the WRONG from the RIGHT!whatever that is!

When did i learn to cook!?

The evenings after school used to be the times that SCREAMED ...FOOD!!!!!!!HUNGER!!!! aloud.
Mom at office.....next best solution....."let me cook for myself!"
Started making instant noodles..step- 1 accomplished!
Started a bit of experimentation to surprise mom n dad when they come home!!(my poor victims!).My partner in crime was my brother .....always criticizes the food i cook...(but secretly praises it wen i am not around!).

Never ever missed a cookery show on Television,though i never try out any of those recipies.
Slowly but steadily my graph started raising....now i can cook real good food!!happy i am!
Cooking started becoming a favourite past time...when i am bored at home....just in to the kitchen to make something nice to eat!!
I never like to eat the food i cook...i d rather wait for someone to taste it to tell me how it actually is...so far so good.

There is nothing like cooking for people you love...don't know where that extra flavour and taste comes from?guess its just love!

BEAUTIFUL BLUE !

what does the beautiful blue sea signify.....i can't find words...to express myself!

went to the beach some two days back...jus stood there watching the sky and the sea blend their different shades of blue......blue is an amazing color,one color that nature's palette exploits to the maximum!


The endless limits of the sea.......it was overwhelming watching the deep blue sea!just standing in the water...all by myself.....its a great experience....!!!

its one of those times when you enjoy being alone.....giving yourselves company!
its a moment where you would want to go someplace alone.......live near a beach....have a camera always in your hand to capture the beauty around.......frozen moments in time!!
wish that day comes when i live near a beach.......be close to the big screen of changing colors-the sky!and its beautiful reflections in the sea below!hmmm.......
mesmerizing!!!